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I really didn't, but I did. I accidentally, found someone's old journal entry. It was written in November of 2012, and it was the last entry as well. This person left dA, moved on to better things I hope.  The journal entry however just felt so devoid of hope. He or she mentioned how no one ever found the dA account unless pointed towards it.  Even then the random visitors were rare. 

"My works do not represent much of any value. It's time to face things, I can't learn how to draw. I will never be one of the cool kids, I'm almost 30, chronically depressed, don't know what I want to do with my life. Soon I'll forget how to use my own legs, but before that I'll get bald, because I can't stop pulling hair out of my head." 

A direct quote from this person. The only thing one can do after reading that, is remember to stay focused. Even if the path is not clear, or  doesn't exist quite yet.  
Funny thing is I found that journal, after looking for alternative websites to deviantArt. Not quite because I want to leave, but because there's no space here for more people trying to make money off their art. The big boys and girls are already sitting pretty on top of the  Deviant Art food chain, which means small fry like me doesn't stand a chance. Dreams of grandeur aside one has to be realistic. 
Still reading such depressing thought, did put a kink or two in my armor. So counteract that I'll make a list of things I want to accomplish. I suggest all my friends to do this. Its important not to forget about our goals, and believe me its easy to do. 
So here it goes. I want to!: 

-get better at painting environments. 
-be able to paint whatever I dream (literally) exactly as I see it. 
-to draw people in more dynamic poses.
-to develop a painting style, specially for characters.
-to add color to my gallery.
-to take all those character drawings, to the next stage.
-ultimately, to have more Finished pieces in my gallery. 

-I want to get better at programming. (my newest obsession)
-to one day, get my Masters in Computer Science and learn more about artificial intelligence. 
-to improve doing 3d environments. 
-but most importantly, to remember why I love 3D in the first place.

-above all, I want to get past how horrible four years of college felt for me. How crippling it was in an artistic sense. I did what they told me, and ended up the last two years just as chronically depressed as that person above. 

That last one is the most important one, even if its last and it is last because it hurts so much to admit. When you feel broken it feels sort of humiliating to admit such a thing. Specially if you've always and still pride yourself in being strong and unmovable. 

:) 
Take it as you wish. A rant. A useless waste of space. Something that makes you think. Or maybe it inspires you. Perhaps it might even remind you of who you are, and what you want. I certainly cannot stop you from thinking its a cry for attention, or another silly deviant fishing for some pity.  
However you interpret it, doesn't much matter to me. Just look inside yourself. We all forget things sometimes, important things. We neglect parts of ourselves too. 

Anyway, if you also have a list. Feel free to leave it in the comments. I'd love to know what your goals are. Who knows? Some of us may even a share a few of such goals. 


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First I want to thank this amazing lady who took the time heed my plea and helped me out with a wonderful feature. 
:iconthroughmyeyesphotos:
There aren't that many people who would go above and beyond. I expected a simple feature nothing more, but no she is even giving away her points to whoever catches my 7,300 pageview. That was not necessary, but she did it anyways!  A person like her ought to be loved and celebrated. :tighthug: 



KIRIBAN


I'm going to offer some free arts for the 7,300 pageview. Did you catch it or get close? Send me a screenshot of it. 
I'm offering something like this:

COMMISSIONS :coming soon!: 


It's something I've been planning on doing for a while now. 


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So yeah found this journal skin, I just had to have it. This color combo is my favorite.  It so pretty. 

Since I want to test out the thumbnail feature on this baby, I decided to feature some of my friend's artwork. 
And now a quote cause its fun and mighty good advice. Might stick permanently to my journal. I like it that much.






Our real guide is our own mind, our sense of reason.Dalai Lama



Does anyone else guide themselves by this? 




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Spy by LeonMcNichol Habor Dawn by Gycinn The Little Mermaid by StarlitCutesies Candy Cane girl by Emptychild22:thumb382413364: Vision by GnappyAssassin:thumb202239742::thumb58521238::thumb371994095::thumb270361515::thumb382996875: Blinking Chibi Cheap Point Commission by sapiboong


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"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one.
Elbert Hubbard"


Did you know, you can take commissions straight from deviant art!! 
I DIDN'T! 
How awesome is that? How does it even work? 



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"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one.
Elbert Hubbard"


A friend of mine  :iconlittle-katydid: has just opened up commission on her page.

She has very reasonable prices and a great clean art style.

Here is a link to her prices and samples. Commission InfoIf interested please note me or email me at kathrynburke713@gmail.com
Chibi Style

Lines: $3
Flats: $6
Shaded: $9
Additional Characters: $1
Sketches

Bust: $3
Fully body: $5
Additional Characters: $1
Lineart

Bust: $6
Fully body: $10
Additional Characters: $3
Flat Colors

Bust: $9
Fully body: $15
Additional Characters: $5
Cell Shading

Bust: $12
Fully body: $20
Additional Characters: $18
Soft Shading

Bust: $15
Fully body: $25
Additional Characters: $11
Rules
1. I will not draw hate art.
2. Paypal payment only
3. I may or may not draw sexual images. Depends on subject matter.


Here is some of her wonderful work. These are some of my favorites :D
LoK: Family Protrait Pic by Little-Katydid Irish Rose by Little-Katydid Adventure Time: Fionna and Cake Art Nouveau by Little-Katydid

Get some amazing art now!
Before she becomes so famous we can't afford her! :D


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